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Hello, hello, hello! It's been a while, hasn't it? Last time I posted I was still in Prague and about to face 30h bus ride back home. I survived it, but barely. Kidding. The first 12h were the worst until I got off the bus at around 6 am for 50 minutes, had a nice talk with some guys from Lithuania and then proceeded to eat sleep and watch cartoons for the remainder of the trip until I finally got to sleep on a bed, well it was a pull-out couch, later that day. And let me tell you, it was heavenly.  What have I been up to since then? Working, more travelling, biking, eating the most delicious and amazing food and of course, tons of much needed self growth. Last year I went trough a lot emotionally and mentally. For months I doubted everything, but I hid it well. Smiled, even though I was actually screaming internally. Until in august I said enough and started the journey of getting better. It's been ...

Like always, you shouldn't make plans too far ahead. 5 days in Berlin with a friend turned into week in Prague by myself. I didn't mind. though. On my first night here I met a fantastic group of people and we did our own version of bar crawl, which ended up with drinking too much, yet amazing, local beer and dancing like crazy's at some random bar until the early hours of the morning. I climbed lot's of hills during my time here, but all the views were worth it. Even my sunburn, in April, is worth it. Right now I'm sitting at the lobby of the hostel I stayed at, waiting for the right time to leave for my tube to the bus station and start my 32h long journey back home. I just cringed as I wrote 32h on bus... Brotip: If you try to save money by taking a bus, don't. Your aching body and sleepless nights are NOT worth it. 

The past months have been kind of crazy and hectic. Trying to do and be a lot of things at the same time kind of sucks a lot out of you. I'm finally on vacation for 2,5 weeks and to start it off, treated myself a trip to Sweden. Next stop: Berlin!

It was a very weird Tuesday. I forgot to set my alarm the night before and got a wake up call by my coworker and didn't end up going in at all. So I had an extra day off. It had been raining on and off all day and by 5 p.m I had watched 17 episodes of ''Gilmore Girls'', so I  just had to get out of my apartment for a while. To go explore my favorite trail on the last day of summer 2015. Rain boots, camera and go. Lightning was fabulous, it was so quiet and the air smelled like rain. It was perfect. 

It was one of those times when escaping sounded better than anything else. Took my bike and camera and just paddled away. 

It's almost August already. Which means fall is just around the corner-my time of the year. Couple of weeks ago I decided to play a tourist in my own city and joined a guided tour trough old town and actually learned couple of new things about this and that. It was lovely. Now I'm cursing over my Photoshop, which decided to stop working suddenly and in all honesty I can't wait to escape to the country side already for couple of days, away from rush hours and people with mean faces. I want to lie in the grass and pick raspberries off the bush. I just want to breathe. 

Independence Day week seems so far away. I remember feeling bad, so I ate my emotions and hormones at the same time while watching whole seasons of The Mindy Project curled up in my bed. I had days ofd, I could afford it. 

It's the new year and 1/12th of it is almost over. I've developed permanent hate for no-parking-yellow and craving  for raw foods and bagels. (Latter after  having a long discussion about American food.) J tought he should be able to whip some up. 

I like fall. It's my favorite season. I love how suddenly everything becomes so colourful; red, yellows and oranges fighting for domination. Taking long walks in the woods with last of the warm sun and drinking cup of tea after cup when it's raining, I like it. It's peaceful. For me fall is the beginning of the year, not January. Fall. 

I have 6 months worth of pictures to photoshop. Oh lord, give me strength! We had a weekend trip to Narva and Narva-Jõesuu back in July with couple of friends. I miss the beach and the warmth. And also a thank you to my friend K, who captured this.

Down time and vacation in the summer was all I needed. Now it's almost over and all there's left are late nights and weekends.  Alot has changed in the last couple of months and it's time to become a real grownup and that terrifies me.

February was a busy month. March is going to be even busier. At moments like this life feels good even if it's not. Then a cup of coffee or tea makes it even sweeter. Definitely coffee.

It's been a rough year and it's only October. I truly hope last few months will be good to me.

I'm not dead, still fully functioning

Siin ma nüüd olen, pärast oma magamata ööd. Eile õhtul oli veel meeletu uni, ent kell kaks läks see ära, kuidagi hõljuv oli olla. Võtsin voodi alt vanad tööd välja, lihtsalt vaatamiseks ja enda mingil määral motiveerimiseks. Ja siis jäin ühe teise inimese töid vaatama ja tunne on kuidagi hea praegu sees. Nägin fotosi suveööst ja kõik tundus nii maagiline. Nagu polekski tegu Eestiga vaid mõne veel seni avastamata linnaliku paradiisiga. Ja samas ei suuda ära oodata järgmist nädalalt, et saaks modelli jälle maalima hakata. Aga see kõik on seda väärt. Tulevik on helge. Hõljuv, aga helge.

See laul on kuidagi mõjutanud kõiki mu tegemisi täna õhtul. Ja ma väga loodan, et see on positiivne nähtus. Mul on A1 paberi peal üsna väike marionett ja mitte kustuvad harilikujooned. Homme pildistan üles.

Juba viimased paar päeva on mul olnud mõte, et peaks vahelduseks digilt filmile üle minema. Täna siis ostsisin oma Smena kapist välja, uurisin filmi hindu ning leidsin suurepärase pakkumise. Homme lähen vaatan, kas poes ka seda on ja pärast seda võib pildistamine lahti minna. Üleüldse, kuna mul on kaks blogi ja enamus tähelepanust saab teine omale, otsustasin, et panen teise kinniseks ja suunan suurema osa energist siia. Jah, suvel sai seda katsetatud, aga praegu leiab kunstiline pool minus rohkem aega kui rääkiv pool. siit ka küsimus: mida te näha tahate, kas jätkan ainult fotodega või lisan ka maale (sest joonistamine ei ole minu just kõige tugevam külg ning seda täiesti ilma naljata)?

(pildid on rändomilt) Kuna õues on külma palju ja mina seda eriti ei talu, ei raatsinud ma sinna isegi mitte tänase ilmaga minna. Avasin lihtsalt akna ja vaatasin, mida pildistada annaks. Leidsin puud akna tagant piiskades ja see oli nii ilus. Ainult, et kaamers jäid pildid palju paremad ja kui laadisin need arvutisse jäi tulemus üsna kesiseks.

Elu on ilus, nagu Solarise tunnuslause väidab. Jooksin täna vihmas ja elu tundus tõesti ilus. Naersin ja jooksin ega näinud midagi, sest suu oli vett täis.